ying

in my heart you have never gone

有时孤独有时可耻。

i’m maja, i’m nineteen and i live in sweden

i cry a lot. i am a child of lucifer but he is no-longer with me except for the demons he left in my body.
i like flowers and things pure but also things most people would call morbid or goreish
i have a bunny and i’ve had a bunny
the bunny that i had was lucifer and i will miss him forever and ever
my world revolves around filip and when he’s around he protects me
i don’t take any pills because they make me feel nothing about everything and i’d rather be happy once in a while and then be sad all the other time, than not to ever feel anything. but actually i do take sleeping pills sometimes because i have a hard time sleeping. and i always have nightmares but i prefer being asleep with them than being awake with reality which is most often worse than the nightmares.
i feel intense happiness sometimes but i think it’s because i’m always sad and apparently laughter is a stronger emotion than crying
so i laugh instead of crying sometimes
i’m friendly to people so don’t be afraid to ask me things (please do, i’m very lonely)





All my life since my mother and I could remember I was afraid of anything to do with the stomach/puking/etc. I wouldn't even like saying the words. To this day I still have it but its now also something that in ways turns me on & its so frustrating


http://childoflamb.tumblr.com/

万物皆灵